How do you say goodbye?? I sit here looking at these pictures and I am in tears. I had such a special bond with my Grandma. I was always at her house, and I loved being around her. Little things will pop into my head and I will say "Remember this time...." I loved that my sisters and I all had our own tree in her yard. My grandpa planted these trees when we were little. It was tradition to get your picture taken in front of your tree when we visited. I remember using a Sharpie and coloring in her address numbers on the bottom of her screen door. I remember spending the night at her house. She would rock us and sing to us in Polish. I loved the smell of Grandma's house. Even getting a letter from her, I would sit and smell it because it reminded me of her so much.
I am grateful we had almost a warning. This past week has been a waiting game. We prayed for her, for her comfort and peace. I am glad that she was able to go home for the final time. I regret not being able to be there to tell her goodbye. But I will cherish the phone conversation I had with her Tuesday. She told me she loved me and I will always have that memory.
I have been a basket case this week. I know my family thinks I have been a walking zombie. Just going through the motions...freaking out whenever the phone would ring or buzz. They know how special Grandma was. And I appreciate them putting up with me.
This has been a hard 2010 for us already. We have said goodbye to 2 family members already. I don't know if I can handle any more.
To my sisters and brother, cousins, Aunts & Uncles, and to my mom and Aunt Jean......I love you all so much. I know this is a hard time for us, but we will get through it together. This will bring us closer together and hopefully make us more grateful for the blessings we have in our lives. I hope we can be closer, and keep in touch. I know Grandma is looking down from Heaven, and making sure we pull together and be a FAMILY.
