It's Officially the Holiday Season

I am usually not one to fuss over a tree, we could put it up Christmas eve and I would be happy.  But for some reason this year, I have been in the holiday spirit sooner.  Maybe it's the welcoming of Jackson, maybe it's the not wanting to give up traditions we have started with Graison & Baylee.  I'm not sure, but I have loved going and looking at Christmas lights and decorations.

Dr. Seuss....we know how much i love him!!

The hospital here, where I had Jackson, does a yearly Festival of Trees.  Different organizations or businesses decorate a tree that is auctioned off and the money goes to different places in the hospital such as the cancer center and the children's ward.   (You may remember that last year my bank decorated a tree and WON 1st place in our division).  So, this is where we started off our holiday season.  By going to see the hundreds of decorated trees.

LOVED how different this tree was!

We rarely have pics of the 2 of us!

   

My still #1....can't believe how time has flown by with Graison

My #1 girl....she amazes me daily at how much she is growing  up!

Jackson....still waiting for someone to come pick up their little one!

Love this one.....

Introducing Jackson Beale....

For the first time in 13 years, there is a new baby in the Calbert house.  I still sometimes look at him and wonder where/why/who this little guy belongs to!

We welcomed Jackson on  November 3 at 9:52pm.  He weighed in at 7lb 9oz and 20 inches.  He wins the award for our smallest baby (yes, Baylee was even bigger).  At 2 weeks early, we were ready for him to get here.

I look back on our whole situation, with the surprise and all, and I sometimes feel so overwhelemed with the whole thing.  I look at Jackson and know without a doubt that he is supposed to be here with us, and a member of our nutty family.

Graison won't admit it, but he loves being with Jackson

Baylee LOVES holding Jackson.  She is loving being a big sis!

Max hates that he is not Scott's center of attention anymore.  

Arrived at the hospital a family of four.....left as a family if 5!!  

HELP

I am wanting a blanket like this.  I will buy the fabric, and everything but I can't sew.  They just look so soft and cozy!!!!

Freshman Homecoming.....

Can you believe that I have a son old enough to be going to High School Homecoming?!  It was a lot of fun getting him ready, finding his shirt and tie....and he looks pretty handsome if I say so!

 

Shock of a Lifetime.....

Ok, so many of you have heard the news. But I thought I would give you the story.  Now that I can talk about it without crying uncontrollably.  


I have been on birth control pills for the past 12 years.  Have never missed one, didn't have any problems with it.  So, in March I went in for my routine yearly.  The doctor and I were talking about alternative BC methods.  There was a newer thing that implants into your arm called the Implanon.  I was in love with it as soon as I heard about it.  It is good for 3 years, and no taking a pill everyday. Besides, I was diagnosed with high blood pressure, and the Implanon was safer for that.


So, I was at the doctors office, Implanon open on the table, and gown ready for me, when the assistant came in and said "Hey, it's routine we do a pregnancy test."  I had NO WORRIES that this wouldn't be just some routine thing.  Until I sat there for 15 minutes waiting for them to come back.  I am starting to get worried.  The doctor was scared to come into my room.  And I knew.  I immediately started crying hysterically!!!!!   I was pissed, and upset, and overwhelmed, and scared, and pissed, and mad.  I couldn't believe it.   


I finally got a hold of Scott. Told him to get to the doc office ASAP.  I was panicking.  So my GYN does a pelvic and tells me "I think you're at least 6-8 weeks!"  WHAT??!!  Then 3 other people come in, they are all trying to hug me and comfort me (thanks for trying but they failed miserably).  I am transferred to the Imaging center to do a more thorough ultrasound.  Good news...GYN was wrong I wasn't 6-8 weeks pregnant.......I WAS 13 WEEKS PREGNANT!!!!!!


So, long story...kinda short.  It was a day I will never forget.  I cried for a week.  I am just now getting to the point where I tell myself "can't do anything about it, might as well start planning."  I still sit and think what in the world.  But I mostly am bummed because I am afraid that this will interfere with spending time and being involved with Graison & Baylee through their high school and jr high careers.  


So, we are due in November.  Which falls right into our line of birthdays (we have a July, August, September, and October now).  We do know that this has to be meant to be.  That we were supposed to have this baby.  It just has turned us upside down.


I have already told my doctors that I will not leave the hospital unless I either have a hysterectomy or an Implant in  my arm.  But with the odds of getting preggo on the pill (99.9%)  I would rather have something a little more permanent!!!     

wish my family lived closer.......no one loves you like your family!!!

Giving it One more shot....

Ok, so thanks to my friend Sarah, I was enlightened upon the "Update" on the bottom of the settings page. I am hoping this will make my blogging experience much easier!


On to Skiing & Snowboarding!!!  We took the kids up to Bogus Basin for our first official ski experience.  We had a few great coupons and deals so it turned out to be a great night out.


Graison was dead set on snowboarding.  We tried to tell him that it would be easier to ski first but he take after Scott and is too stubborn to listen.  Needless to say, he left with a bruised tailbone because he fell so many times!




































Baylee was dead set on the opposite...she wanted skiis.  Scott and I kept commenting on how impressed we were with her.  She took to skiing very easily and soon after was on her first chairlift up the mountain to a higher hill.  

All in all it was a great Saturday. I was a little over concerned about the VERY long and VERY windy road up to Bogus, and Scott was more than eager to tell me to calm down.  We realized that the kids definately  need warmer gear to wear.  

                               

HATE THIS

I HATE THIS BLOG.....I don't know why I can't type and put pictures in where I want them!!!! So, just be warned that I will probably not post anything else.....

Saying Goodbye....

How do you say goodbye?? I sit here looking at these pictures and I am in tears. I had such a special bond with my Grandma. I was always at her house, and I loved being around her. Little things will pop into my head and I will say "Remember this time...." I loved that my sisters and I all had our own tree in her yard. My grandpa planted these trees when we were little. It was tradition to get your picture taken in front of your tree when we visited. I remember using a Sharpie and coloring in her address numbers on the bottom of her screen door. I remember spending the night at her house. She would rock us and sing to us in Polish. I loved the smell of Grandma's house. Even getting a letter from her, I would sit and smell it because it reminded me of her so much.

I am grateful we had almost a warning. This past week has been a waiting game. We prayed for her, for her comfort and peace. I am glad that she was able to go home for the final time. I regret not being able to be there to tell her goodbye. But I will cherish the phone conversation I had with her Tuesday. She told me she loved me and I will always have that memory.

I have been a basket case this week. I know my family thinks I have been a walking zombie. Just going through the motions...freaking out whenever the phone would ring or buzz. They know how special Grandma was. And I appreciate them putting up with me.

This has been a hard 2010 for us already. We have said goodbye to 2 family members already. I don't know if I can handle any more.

To my sisters and brother, cousins, Aunts & Uncles, and to my mom and Aunt Jean......I love you all so much. I know this is a hard time for us, but we will get through it together. This will bring us closer together and hopefully make us more grateful for the blessings we have in our lives. I hope we can be closer, and keep in touch. I know Grandma is looking down from Heaven, and making sure we pull together and be a FAMILY.

Frustrated!!!!

So, my sister told me that I don't blog enough! So I thought that since I had alot to update about the holidays that i would sit and get it all done.

BUT OH NO!!! I am hating this blog thing right now. I don't know how my sisters do it. Especially Jennifer who has all pictures done so dang cute. I can't even get the picture to go where the heck I want it!!! It is very frustrating!!! So, if you want to see pics, ask me and I will email them!!!